I wake up in the morning thinking about going to bed later that night. Don’t get me wrong, I love my days, but when you’re not getting a full night of sleep the first thoughts through any normal person’s mind is ‘When can I get back into bed?’ As the morning progresses I fight off the yawns and heavy eyelids while taking care of breakfast. No matter how tired I am it seems like the mornings drag on.
Finally when noon rolls around I have to make a game-time decision whether to feed Reece lunch or put him down for a nap. If I feed him and he is not hungry it just winds him up more. If I put him to bed and he is hungry, he won’t go down. More time than not I make the right call but when I don’t and his nap is affected and the rest of my day is a bit louder. Kylee’s routine has not been totally established yet which makes planning somewhat difficult. She is still sleeping a lot so sometimes the stars align and both babies nap at the same time!
If I am so lucky, when nap time is in full swing I am faced with the decision, ‘what to do with my time.’ Lately, it is the only time for me to workout, eat lunch, clean, do laundry and if there is any time left over I try to flip a few pages of a good book. There is hardly ever enough time. Today, Kyle came home to me doing push-ups with Reece giggling on my back and Kylee wiggling awake in her bed. I was sweaty and sore, Reece was only in a diaper because I hadn’t dressed him for the day and Kylee ready for her next meal.
After nap time the rest of the zooms by in a flash. I have no idea what happens in the eight hours before bed but I know there is crying, bouncing and selective hearing along with giggles, smiles and playful screams. Sometime in there we eat dinner take showers and spend time together watching TV -Mickey Mouse, the news and ESPN. Before I realize it, Reece is going to bed and I am soothing Kylee down so I can have some quiet time before I hit the hay.
Here we are, almost 10 and this is the first time I am my number one priority. The TV is on in the background and my to-do list is growing. I usually take this time to think about what tomorrow will look like but, who am I kidding? it is forcasted to look just like today. As soon as I wake up in the morning I think about right now, but it isn’t as dreamy as I imagine it to be. I do not softly rest my head on the pillow at night, but rather I pass out from sheer exhaustion and hope my feet are at the foot of the bed. All I can be sure of is that tomorrow will come (starting with a middle of the night feeding) and I will do it all over again. At some point my days will slow down and I won’t wonder where the time goes.
Funny, before I could publish as I was thinking about the joy of closing my eyes and falling asleep but just as I was moing my cursor to the ‘Publish” button Reece started to cry. He was soaked through his diaper so Kyle changed him while I grabbed new jammies and took care of the bed. I am done writing now so I hope to close my laptop, feed Kylee and crawl into bed for a glorious four to five hours of sleep. That is the plan but only time will tell if it actually works out that way.